This post is a little different to the others. I’m sitting here writing this on a Sunday afternoon after a week of ups and downs. I’ve done a little soul searching and made a few decisions this weekend.
Mainly about writing.
I started Good Health Buzz because I have an overwhelming general love for all things healthy and for fitness, and I wanted to share that. I wanted to write about my journey to starting running and eating vegetarian and gluten-free.
And I’ve loved doing that.
But to be honest, I’ve lost a lot of the joy of writing here because I started to think that I HAD to put something amazing on here every week. It was never intended to be a source of income, just a fun hobby. Yet that’s how I started treating it this year.
Writing is hard. It’s an ever evolving learning process I guess. I discovered a few other things while I was thinking about this over the weekend…
Copywriting in the long run is not for me. I don’t have a thick enough skin and don’t ask me to be creative in 15 minutes because you won’t get quality work. Freelance writing is unpredictable to say the least. Jobs come and go. I want more control over my income and some stability.
I love inspiring people and motivating them to be the best version they can be of themselves.
That’s why I started a wellness website called Imagine You last month.
I feel like I’ve found something that makes sense to both my heart and my head.
That’s the reason I haven’t been writing here as often as I used to – I’ve been putting all my energy into this new project.
So I’m taking a little break from Good Health Buzz. Right now I’m trying to do too many things and I need to put my focus where my heart and head is. And that’s just not here at the moment. Maybe in a few months or weeks… but just not right now. And I refuse to just slap things together simply for the sake of having something here. I’d rather have nothing than some lame copy just for the sake of publishing something.
Direction & Passion
A lot of the topics I write about here I also write about on Imagine You (health, happiness, calm & zen, fitness, etc.) – but in shorter articles with tips and videos and research. Eventually I hope to get other writers on board, but it’s a slow process. I have SO much planned for this new venture and I know it’s going to take a while to get off the ground. It’s not easy – I’ve still got a lot to learn. (Looking at the figures of some of my social media pages is frightening and frankly really demotivating. BUT as my good writing buddy Bill says, “You can’t expect success to happen, even if you want it to. It’s going to take time.”)
He’s 100% right. Patience and persistence are two of my biggest vices I need to work on.
I’ve also realised that I’ve been going about things the wrong way lately. I’ve been expecting too much and not giving enough. You know that little thing called karma? Yes, that.
I came to some other conclusions this weekend after chatting to two good friends – and while lying in the sun yesterday (the winter sun was AMAZING)…
The Real Me…
Things that have made me go, “Oh, NOW I get it!” A bit of it has to do with who I am as a person – this shy, introverted, creative person who has always felt like an outsider. I’ve lost “friends” and been judged because I don’t talk a lot when I meet new people or when I’m in a large group. I guess some people might think of me as stuck up or a little rude. I’m not that at ALL – it’s just hard for me to get out of my shell sometimes – harder than most people can ever imagine.
Not really sure why I’m getting into all this now – I guess things have just become a lot clearer lately and it feels good to get it off my chest. And I know one or two people might read this and cringe because it’s letting my true colours show… but that’s EXACTLY the point.
I want to be me. Who cares if it’s showing a weaker side.
Luckily, I’ve got some pretty amazing friends who’ve taken the time to get to know the real me. (The girl who paints her nails blue and tells her boss to make a more positive work environment. The girl who dances like no one’s watching on the rare occasion of going to a club (not infested with teeny boppers)).
So this weekend I made the decision to stop trying to get people to like me. In person, online, and through my writing.
Life is just too short to not be as authentic as you can be. And I haven’t been as much as I could be. This is the first raw post I’ve written in a really long time and it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Not that anything else I’ve written isn’t true – that’s all the real me – just sometimes it feels good to let that wall come down a bit.
I know I also have a bad habit of judging people on first impressions as well, so that’s something I’ve got to work on.
Last quick update… I’ve started working on a new little side project (tied in with Imagine You). I haven’t put it out there because I have a really bad habit of not following through on certain things. So that’s staying wrapped up tightly until it’s 100% finished.
Okay, I’m done. The end of this long waffle is over!
In the spirit of good karma and giving back and sharing, I invite anyone who would like to do a guest post on Imagine You, OR who has a wonderful business or product that ties in with helping people to grow (health, wellness, education, etc.), or just some awesome feel-good stuff they want to share, to contact me. (Email to firstname.lastname@example.org.)